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The Lord assured the Israelites not to be afraid. That even though they had sinned against Him , as long as they changed their ways and obey Him He will not forsake them.
1 samuel 12:20-21 Then Samuel said to the people, Do not fear. You have done all this wickedness; yet do not turn aside from following the Lord,but serve the Lord with all your heart.
And do not turn aside; for then you would go after empty things which cannot profit or deliver, for they are nothing. For the Lord will not forsake His people , for His great name’s sake, because it has pleased the Lord to make you His people.
25: But if you still do wickedly, you shall be swept away both you and your king.
Psalm 145:8
The Lord is merciful and compassionate , slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.

God is merciful. God is love. He doesn’t judge you according to your sins, when you repent and turn to Him. When you were on the road to destruction and everything you did proved that you don’t deserve another chance He gives you another chance.
He exchanges your brokenness, your pain, your emptiness and fills and restores you with His love.

God loves you and does not want you to be lost in the crowd. He knows the outcome of the decisions you take.

Choices of disobedient lead to an empty soul. Your flesh is filled up but your soul is broken. Because God created you for Him and nothing in this world will fill you up. There is no peace in the things that will pass away, peace is only found in Jesus.

John 14:6
Jesus answered “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the father except through me.

Its only in Jesus that you are restored, its only in Jesus that you are complete. The more decisions and actions you partake in outside His will the more empty you become.

John 6:35
Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.

Walk in God’s will. Seek after Him and desire for Him, only He can fill you up.

Thats why Samuel said to the Israelites
1 samuel 12:21
And do not turn aside; for then you would go after empty things which cannot profit or deliver, for they are nothing.
I can speak from experience. I used to consistently fornicate. When I felt empty, the answer to my emptiness was ” sex”. But everytime I had sex i felt even more empty. I felt even more broken. In Front of people I looked “happy”.

I knew God’s word because I was brought up as a christian. I was brought up in a home where we prayed and read God’s word together. Even though sex filled my flesh, I constantly went around feeling empty, woke up feeling lost and ashamed.

Because I knew God’s word when i began fornicating, I felt convicted. I would constantly ask God to forgive me. Just before I fornicated I didnt feel convicted but after i did I would ask God to forgive me. But it seemed impossible to live without fornicating, because everyone around my circle saw it as the norm. Even though they knew God’s word. They said it was natural. Forgetting that, the creator of all things nature and man made created sex as a covenant between man and woman. That it involves an agreement with God over two souls uniting to be one.

I was afraid of leaving a sin, which i had been used to. A sin that fed my flesh. A sin that made me feel like i could connect with my then boyfriend. So overtime even though i told my self i won’t do it I saw myself going back into the same thing i said I wouldn’t do.

Everyday I prayed to God for peace. Even though i was laughing on and smiling on the outside, i was broken on the inside.

I knew God had spoken to me since I was a child,through  dreams. But I couldn’t understand the dreams and I would hardly receive them when I was fornicating. I wanted to understand my dreams and have a relationship with God.

Everything started falling apart. Not just my peace within but my peace on the outside. I would run to pharmacy after pharmacy afraid of pregnancy. Even to focus at university was a problem.

Wait when you are walking in obedience with God you won’t be afraid of an outcome. Because you trust Him. You will trust the man that God brings into your life, that He won’t sleep around and infect you with any disease.

But God…. He is merciful, when you turn from your wicked ways. He is speaking to your heart through your family your heart, but sin has become a norm. That even when you dress up in it you don’t see its filth. You don’t see its destruction to your soul.

Nothing in this world will satisfy. No job, no amount of money, no boyfriend.

I continued to seek God’s face and my everytime i did i felt peace. When I cried out to Him for provision He provided. I started to think, what If I gave up fornication and made time for Him. God began to use me and reveal himself to me through dreams and the bible. I wanted to draw closer to Him and I knew deep within me I needed to let go of my past. I needed to separate from my sinful ways.

As I woke up one morning I started thinking of how faithful God has been to me and I couldn’t continue to live in disobedience. So I announced to my ex boyfriend that we could continue to stay in the relationship as long as we both remained celibate.

Before I even spoke to Him i kept praying to God that He would understand. That God will soften His heart. I was afraid of loosing someone I had been used to. But my relationship with God came first. I thought to myself, my boyfriend could not give me the peace I was receiving from God. I couldnt continue to feel guilty. And I was already excited about how God was speaking to me in dreams and His word.

So one rainy an cold day in autumn. I almost felt like my world was about to end. I broke the news to my ex boyfriend. He didn’t understand why. Perhaps He even thought i found someone else.

To cut the story short. I ended up single 😂. Now i had to go through the process of heart break the first time in my life in the middle of my final year of university. But Jesus showed Himself strong. Every time i worshiped i became stronger. The holy spirit led me through God’s word and even people to encourage me. Everywhere i turned i could feel the arm of a loving father holding me together. My relationship with God began to blossom. I cant remember a day missed without hearing Him through a dream or through His word. The holy spirit is a true comforter. I experienced Jesus like i never did before. God revealed to me dreams about the outcome of university, warnings for my family and i was just blown away. I couldn’t believe I was missing such an intimate relationship with Jesus because I chose to please my flesh.
God favored me through out my exams, my registration to become a qualified radiographer and even in my job.

Your relationship with God is more valuable than any other relationship.